THAT'S FINE #1

I haven't read The Great Gatsby in 15 years so Idk what I'm talking about.

You truly believe you’re right, that there is a right, you’re wrong.

You can only know yourself and even that’s suspicious.

Vulnerability is a performance-enhancing drug.

I’m hungry I’m bleeding I’m doing it my way. Don’t talk to me about belief, routines. I’m like the most traditional guy at this party and I have no idea how to get married or buy a house or take a vacation and I don’t UNDERSTAND YOU
I know how to turn on George Strait, chew tobacco, shut laptop until Monday 
I know how to come, have fun, and leave
I know how to love thyself
thy neighbors, thy work, thy sun

The Great Gatsby suggests the American Dream is a delusion but only because he dies, only because he’s a martyr in unrequited love who gets taken for granted by his fake friends.
I haven’t read that book in 15 years so Idk what I’m talking about. I thought he killed himself but he doesn’t but he dies
but nobody goes to his funeral (except his dad and Nick maybe)
The demise of the American Dream deserves a eulogy so what? Was it never alive?
Was it too self-absorbed to block him before he lied his way into jail? doesn’t make a great spouse now does he? or is that just what you’re looking for? 
looking out for yourself 
you’re my #1 
you’re delusional
everyone is 
delusional that’s what a dream is 
“I’m present and guilty” it’s like saying I love you 
Romance can only happen when you’re somewhat awake and somewhat honest and somewhat delusional 

You’re frustrated, you’re attracted to Daisy,
she’s not responding, she’s busy, she has ADHD
You only want one thing
She doesn’t know what she wants
She usually knows when she wants it 
I’m sorry I trust myself. I’m sorry. I trust myself

The Great Gatsby romanticizes indifference and then dies
everyone does
it’s romantic it’s horrific
nothingness, a kiss, a chance to see this through, to see what happens, to give God your heart
I’m becoming a nun
I’m becoming a sociopath
I’m becoming numb
I’m becoming good
I’m becoming done

Don’t believe any of this
I think, I don’t know, I think
I think it’s important for both sides to acknowledge that both things can be true.
Well I don’t think that’s true 
Well to think does not know 
Well the truth is made of belief makes things grow

Think for thyself man
like your beliefs man, your life man, your routine is bland man
I would never want to inform thee tho not like that 
like—beat thy ego up 
make it eat shit and kiss it goodnight
what sound toxic? don’t listen to me 
don’t worry about me 
God told me 
everything will be ok
one day 
Jesus > God < Everything