meant to text: a vain and futile compilation of love
Responding to texts & getting dressed 1 weak at a time.
Do you draft all your texts before you send them? There’s a reason i never respond and it’s the opposite of I don’t care. It’s that i care so much that i want to take time and be thoughtful and not sound stupid or ingenuine. maybe I’m slow to transition between conversations so easily. Maybe I’m a ROMANTIC. But this phone is these messages are not natural! Feeling like the generation between two where its expected we “Re”.
Well I prefer — Writing long love letters to people i just met & Reading my diary aloud to my family in a moving car. “While I have you here..” This email is my current equivalent though feel free to stop by my spot o’clock and beg me to come down stairs for a smoke and then sincerely ask me how are you and we can get into some real deep shit.
Another reason this is in anyone’s inbox. I lost my novel due to comp crashing this past November (still sad). And the realization that I had emailed none of it to anyone — wait one page to my bf —— was so SAD. This would never have happened to Charles Dickens and boy does my sixth grade self wish it had.
I need to send stuff out as i write it. publish in pieces. Nope thats not what this is. I will not be sending pieces of my novel to this email chain though I will do whatever I want and try not to think about consequences because I over value consequences in a way that complicates things and suppresses creativity & my true being. OK depending how many of these I send and how prolific we get. we could just print these out poop them together and call it. Meant to text: a vain and futile compilation of love.
I did get 2TB data storage cloud crap and a printer.
Please file these emails in a folder in your e box solely for the day when i lose all my work in an icloud hack and whatever the few of you keep and remember passwords to, we can open these up and say “she really did have trouble texting back...” “she really did wear cow clogs”
“it really was all meant to matter”
I wonder how many people were using Elon musks kids name as their password then the announcement was like passwords compromised.
MEANT TO TEXT
I change all names or specifics to A for confidentiality— you may know if there’s one for you.
A you are an inspiration and your Instagram is really good. all aspiring journalist should follow you
I’m here!
is it the same font? like I love the font you did in the first one it’s a little thinner or taller would it work with this design? take off 27
and i’m wearing my A shirt! fair to say this is my first of many
Sorry for my delay. I would love to but I don’t think I have the time right now :( that sounds like an amazing thing to do...
A awwwww thank you. I have extra! & it will be printed soon
I’m so sorry I fell into a hole I love you we had such a good time will do that whenever
I’m more interested in how you chose to keep your last name?
So funny I would honestly not have known what this means
Omg A and i were like if we moved to this spot... we could still see A ...
I dreamt that you had a baby girl and lived somewhere grassy
OUTFITS
OK, Monday through Thurs I wore this
Acid wash sweat pants? They are really really really comfy and even if you hate acid wash which honestly I dont love that look but bc of how comfy these pants are i am now an acid wash wearer and ... fan. Like now that i wear it its kinda cool.
And Cow Clogs (cause they are new and make me tall and loud and I love them)
I ordered these clogs on Poshmark in a Moderna fever dream on my birthday.
And now I’m going to style them with everything.
My first wear was to Easy Street, a smash burger spot on Western. Did smash burgers just pop the eff up and are things just popping the eff up cause of the internet cause like how did things spread before?
Remember we weren’t supposed to compare ourselves to women in the magazine. OMG those woman always seemed so unrealistic to me just cause like... magazines are art they were so obviously not themselves. BUT NOW I can’t I image in we all look go god dam real and good on line.
Thursday NIGHT I thought I got a text that made me think I MIGHT be going out so I got dressed at 8PM & then we weren’t so I just left it on and it felt good. I’m like Woooooow getting dressed feels good.
This is what I put on, honestly so little love put into this fit it’s for the best I played chess, had a glass of wine and put back on Monday to Thursday fit.
Also when I pick a quick outfit like this I need to like do it right now.
I love what this top does to my boobs without actually circling them.
These jeans (which I will wear again on Friday)
Wow I didn’t even put on a belt I must have realized not going out and just stopped getting dressed.
Top is Zara 3 years ago... good luck
Jeans are citizens for humanity Charlotte High Rise Straight Jeans (!!!)
Cow clogs Matisse true to size & I got them on Poshmark brand new for $25 I think they cost much more than this. They are like REAL wood clogs. You know when I’m home.
Friday I’m in Love nah I’m exhausted
Cookie hoops afterlife hat (thank you @CatMarnell)
AirPod pro & Armani sunglasses no idea the type/ I like to have my senses a little muted on a Friday no I’m just naturally hungover like that.
Talon all saints sweatshirt
The citizens jeans from last night
Vince slides — linked earlier
And an attitude ;)
OK had pizza at my neighbors wearing that above then below is what I put on when I got back home and hydrated. Rodman you’ll be seeing more of this. I am wearing my cow clogs here.
Below this is how I took the dog out before I showered Saturday AM
Love shack fancy skirt is so cute and I wear it for the dumbest things. need to style it cuter but I also like how cute it is when being lazy. Like Slip on something really cute to take out my really cute boy
OK then I shower and am going OUT for the day meaning I leave the house at 5… so here is what I am wearing and will be wearing the rest of the day & into the night.
OMG this is a terrible photo a great outfit that will be repeated and captured better at some point . Hilariously bad fashion photography.
This is everyday gorgeous collar your cant even see in the photo GANNI dress for me like a uniform the best boots ever, shown from a terrrible angle and I’m wearing this angel baby tee underneath so I can rewear this all week… seriously need an undershirt underarm solution for less washes.
I brought tights the kind that are a pair of thigh highs to put on if i got cold and ended up not wearing them but in all saints talon & forever favorite tna vest & the cookie hoops afterlife hat to stay warm from E’s comedy show at Delicious Pizza patio to friends in Beverlywood. …
OK and because I already got dressed and have not sent this here is SUNDAY I guess I’m dressed for dog walking and book club in the PM.
First this nice blurry photo — this tank top is my favorite but its see through and i mean too see through. So blurry capture and then a sweater for the public. Reformation sold out everywhere HIGHLY recommend even though its see through like there’s tap for that. It kind of wakes you up. It’s not a corset but it like livens the day…. like wearing jeans? Ive just been in sweats so much.
Oooo I love this outfit… will be on repeat. But its almost too cute? Like I could see adding something a huge dark coat or thick jeans to this outfit . I’ll see if that happens today and we can followup next time.
Patricia slippers from earlier, free people tartan skirt— cannot find online. top shop cropped sweater that I think is ripping off skims?
Keep in touch! I won’t! Until next time subs.
PS sorry if I decided you might want to read this and you didn’t sign up for it and this is a surprise to you that you are on my very diary like email newsletter. Please do as you wish with the access including delete and ignore me. No hard feelings i know you love me.
PSS its Mother’s Day holy mom I did not really mean to be sending this on that day but my mom was second to subscribe? Maybe first its a little blurry. But she was the first to dress me for sure and the first to let me dress however i wanted as much as little as i want to no matter the occasion. (Definitely encouraged dressing way up). Like when I wore a silk white dress to my babysitters graduation / ballet Clara costume to dinner with grandpa / tutus and underwear through 7th grade. Mom dresses like the artist she is, she dresses with her gut and to feel good. Cause when you feel like you’re wearing it right then you’re wearing it right and when you wear it right you can never be over or under dress but dressed just how everyone else wants to be…. TRENDS
meant to text: a vain and futile compilation of love
Loving this.
You are a true original. Love it all